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24th-Feb-2006 09:41 am(no subject)
Why so Serious?
College is hard please pray for me and my hard times.

Thank you
8th-Jan-2006 01:56 pm - A prayer for 2006...
Why so Serious?
Lord in time of leisure I like the peaceful and tranquility of a small town, but in time of work I like a bustling metropolis of your work, where and what should I seek? What would you have me do, and where for you Lord, where should I go, what should I do, where do you want me?
Thank you for all that you give us,

1st-Sep-2005 12:13 pm - Prayers for Hurricane Victims

Please pray for relief for all the hurricane victims and that we (the US govt and its people) are doing the most we can. I know there are many ways to donate money, Here is a list . For those who can't support monetarily, please offer your prayers.
16th-Aug-2005 08:49 am(no subject)
me and bee

"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!

And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.

Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known.

But we know that when he appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is.

Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure."

1 John 3:1-3 NIV

1st-Aug-2005 11:51 am - Question for the college age peeps
Please come to my journal to answer a question about what discussion topic is most interesting to you and why. My husband and I are trying to work with a 20s and 30s group and your help would be appreciated.

Sorry I don't pay so can't create a quiz for you guys.
30th-Jul-2005 11:24 pm(no subject)
I hate flying.

This is unfortunate because I simply love seeing and experiencing new sites and places. Viewing them in a book or watching them on the History and Travel Channels simply doesn't satisfy me as much as I'd like them to. How I've dreamed of visiting places such as Italy, Japan, Scandinavia, Britain...the list goes on. I have a good friend in California who's wanted me to come visit, and I'd love to, but I'm afraid of taking the quick route by buying a plane ticket (not to mention I'm kind of broke, but I digress). Why won't I do it? Because I have a fear of flying.

Initially, I used to think flying was fantastic. I used to love sitting by the window in my younger years, watching the various landscapes beneath me as I soared high above them. I would look for city landmarks as we went in for landings. I would occasionally take a nap in the chair while winding down from my youthful elation. That doesn't happen anymore.

When I'm on a plane now, the term "white-knuckled" describes me completely. It takes so little to get me to grab my seat and hang on for dear life. I'll eat food nervously, hoping to finish as quickly as possible so that the plane won't jump, causing the tray to hit me in the gut, as this will most likely cause me to get a tad sick. Because of the rush of adrenaline, sleep isn't even close to being an option. I know what you're thinking, "Man, you're such a coward." Well, you're probably right.

Is it the fact that terrorists highjacked airliners and caused one of the most infamous moments in American history? Perhaps a little bit, but my fear had been growing before this. Is it because whenever there's a report on television regarding a plane crash and pointing out that there were no survivors? Ever? I won't lie and say that probably affects my psyche about it, but again, that's not the real reason. Is it because of the horror stories that news magazines report regarding the horrendous food they serve to those in coach? Well, no. I think anyone who's eaten at Taco Bell can stomach the idea of consuming whatever the airlines serve.

There are actually two real reasons. The first is turbulence. I hate turbulence. The idea of the seemingly enormous contraption I'm flying in can be tossed around like a plastic bag in water makes me very uncomfortable. The falling, then rising, then falling, then tipping, then diving....dear Lord, I'm getting tense just thinking about it. It gives yet another impression of just how small we are, and the feeling that no matter what we create, it's still tiny, and it would take nothing more than a little gust of air to snuff it out.

The other reason that remains prominent is the fact that I have absolutely no control as to what's going on. My life is in the hands of another, leaving me to remain idle and no be able to do anything to protect myself. I have to trust somebody else, a stranger, to keep my flame on God's candelabra lit. I hate not being in control of my own life, and this is another thing I must sacrifice for the sake of convenience.

After sitting and pondering this for a time, I realized something very interesting: My fear of flying is equivalent to my fear of God. Turbulence. Life itself is a constant stream of turbulence, as it takes so little to blow a person off course. Just look at the life I've lived up until now. Never, in my wildest dreams, did I expect to fall in love at 17, only to have her die merely three years later. Never did I expect to be a student back in college, just about to complete his AA degree, while just about to hit 25, and working towards a teaching degree. Never did I expect to want to return to the church. Never did I expect to be living with my parents again at my age (although I DID expect to not be particularly happy with it, as is the case). Life is an extremely unpredictable game, and one's fate can change with a simple choice.

With wanting God's grace, I must relinquish control. Not entirely, mind you, as my life is a gift, and I wish to live it for myself, as is His will. But it's no longer something I have to live alone, and that frightens me. It makes me feel trapped, like I must do things to please another, rather than pleasing myself. However, the idea in question is translating God's feelings, God's love, God's grace into my own life. His love for me, my love for Him; His direction for my life, my usage of this direction to supplement my life.

I made a very difficult decision to come here, as I've seen myself as forsaken for my lack of abeyance for many years. I didn't want to belittle the Human Spirit. I didn't want to worship any sort of deity. I wanted to live a life free of boundaries and restraints, as I saw religion in the past.

Now, all I really want to do, is fly.
27th-Jul-2005 05:44 pm - Time
Ever since my son was born I've felt really disconected from God and my church family.
I love Jonah with all my heart, but he consumes so much of my time that I never seem to have any time to read God's word. I rarely get to sit through a full sermon at church. I'm either in the nursery (because it's my week to be) or out of town visiting my parents. I think I've only been able to fully enjoy one sermon since my son was born almost 3 months ago.
I used to read the Bible online while I was at work on my breaks... But now my breaks are consumed with more Jonah stuff that I absolutley have to do (since he gets breastmilk instead of formula).
And, I know this may seem weird, but I feel even worse because God has been blessing us so tremendously lately.
Even though things have been tight, we've always been able to pay the bills and do anything that is absolutley neccesary (like when the blower motor for the air conditioner broke in the middle of the heat wave).... And now we are getting a house (the sellers agreed to our offer)... And even though some un expected things were thrown at us with that, God still has worked it out and continues to bless us.
I know I don't deserve it. I know even if I read the Bible everyday and went to church faithfully and was the greatest missionary ever, I wouldn't deserve the love and mercy God gives us because I'm a sinner and do things against God all the time..... But I still feel like I especially shouldn't be getting any special blessing right now because of my lack of fellowship with him. Does that make sense to anyone else?
I'm looking forward to this Sunday because I will get to sit and hear the sermon and take notes like I used to.... I just really need to work harder and making time for the things that really matter. God.
So, I'm pretty sure anyway, that I posted quite a while back announcing that I had my son! And am very thankful to God that he is healthy and happy and extremely good boy!
God has blessed my life quite a bit lately and challenged it all at the same time (as I'm sure it he does with everyone).
Anywho, my husband and I finally got to go look at some homes today and it's a really exciting time but always a prayerful one as well.
If you guys could please pray that God puts us in the right house that would be wonderful!
Now that things aren't as chaotic as they were when Jonah was first born, I'm looking forward to fellowshipping with all of you again!

God bless!

25th-Jul-2005 03:31 pm(no subject)
There’s nothing new under the sun
Left for me to do
The last great thrills I’ve felt are fleeting
Once I was excited
For the things the world could give
But no more, I’m only thrilled by You

You still amaze me
You still amaze me
Bigger than the sky
Brighter than the sun
You’re the One

You filled me with the things I need
And gave me something more
And I’ve ran with the freedom that You gave me
You’re the reason for the stars that decorate my night
So I sing, yeah I sing
You’re the maker

You still amaze me
You still amaze me
Bigger than the sky
Brighter than the sun
You’re the One

And I’m free to be loved
I’m alive from Your gentle touch
I’m touched from the sky
Let me cry, You’re amazing
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